Well, so much has happened and not happen since the last blog. Last month= no Pregnancy :(
Also, our chances of buying a house fell through :( It has definitely been a roller coaster of emotions. I thought for sure- everything would work out for us- but nothing did. I was almost ready to call it quits on trying because the heartbreak of it not working and getting my hopes up only to come crashing down seemed unbearable!! But after talking to hubby- realized it wasnt a complete lost last month- my body did respond to the meds like the doctor wanted, even though no pregnancy. So I am continuing the treatment this month. Hopefully better luck!
Friday, May 21, 2010
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
IN GOD'S TIMING!!!
God is Great!! ALL The Time!!! I can not express how amazed at the blessings God is showing us right now. When praying for AF- I wanted to hurry and come, but God knew the right time and he made it so I started my cycle on the right day so my co-worker would be back when I had to go to the Dr. I know that may not seem like such a miracle to some but it truly is in God's perfect timing! I wouldn't have been able to miss work while she was out to go to the dr for my labs. Praise HIM!
So Today, I went to the dr today for my baseline ultrasound, and bloodwork- Everything looks great. On Saturday I start taking the Letrazole meds to help me ovulate... and then I use a home ovulation kit to see if and when I ovulate. I BELIEVE!!!!
Next, Steven's is doing a little better on his ankle, He went to the doctor today to, and they gave himm an anti-inflammatory shot and he goes back Tuesday for a follow-up. BY HIS STRIPES WE ARE HEALED!!!!
Last but not least, Yesterday we called to look into a 1st time home buyers assistance program for help with the down payment. (Step Up www.ahfa.com) we filled out paper work with Regions to see if we qualified for it and what amount for a house we could get prequalified for, and they approved us for 200K. If you only knew how long Steven and I have been wanting to buy a house, but were just unable to come up with the down payment- you know how much of a true blessing this is. I am calling today to see what our next step is! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!
I honestly am so overwhelmed with all the blessings God is showing us right now, I am almost in tears (happy tears!) We have had a rough time for the past 3 yrs with the Migraines, and the infertility, and staying strong for each other. But God heard all my prayers and the prayers of so many of you for us, and he is answering in His TIME!
So Today, I went to the dr today for my baseline ultrasound, and bloodwork- Everything looks great. On Saturday I start taking the Letrazole meds to help me ovulate... and then I use a home ovulation kit to see if and when I ovulate. I BELIEVE!!!!
Next, Steven's is doing a little better on his ankle, He went to the doctor today to, and they gave himm an anti-inflammatory shot and he goes back Tuesday for a follow-up. BY HIS STRIPES WE ARE HEALED!!!!
Last but not least, Yesterday we called to look into a 1st time home buyers assistance program for help with the down payment. (Step Up www.ahfa.com) we filled out paper work with Regions to see if we qualified for it and what amount for a house we could get prequalified for, and they approved us for 200K. If you only knew how long Steven and I have been wanting to buy a house, but were just unable to come up with the down payment- you know how much of a true blessing this is. I am calling today to see what our next step is! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!
I honestly am so overwhelmed with all the blessings God is showing us right now, I am almost in tears (happy tears!) We have had a rough time for the past 3 yrs with the Migraines, and the infertility, and staying strong for each other. But God heard all my prayers and the prayers of so many of you for us, and he is answering in His TIME!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Cycle Day 1
Aunt flow finally arrived! and at the right moment! God's timing is perfect even when we try to rush it. So now I go in for my baselines and ultrasound on Thursday.. and Pray we ovulate!
Monday, April 12, 2010
Monday Morning Blahs...
Well the weekend is over and I am back at work...blah! What I weekend- almost glad to be back to work... As I said previously, Midnight had a horrible day Saturday, and then Sunday Steven rolled his ankle. He is in a boot and on crutches and can't do anything for himself, so I am wore out. I made sure he had everything I could possibly get him, before I left for work this morning. And said to call if anything happened. So I think he will be okay today.
Another positive for being at work today is my evil co-worker, who brings me down with her sorry attitude is off for the next 3 days! YAY!! It does mean I have more work to do but, it is so worth it not to have to hear her complain about absolutely everything she does. She is the type of person who feels like she should get paid without doing any work.
Thank you Lord, for the small miracles! My work days will go so much smoother without her here!
Changing topics: At the beginning of next month I will schedule to take to MAT to get into Grad school at AUM for the fall. Grad school is something I have wanted to do since undergrad, but financially was unable to, but now seems like a possibility. I have been studying vocabulary words like crazy for the past month. I know this is a lot to take on while trying to get pregnant, but I at least want to know I can do it, and taking the MAT and getting in is the first step. I can always take a break if/when I do get pregnant. No need to put other plans on hold, until it is a sure thing. :)
Another positive for being at work today is my evil co-worker, who brings me down with her sorry attitude is off for the next 3 days! YAY!! It does mean I have more work to do but, it is so worth it not to have to hear her complain about absolutely everything she does. She is the type of person who feels like she should get paid without doing any work.
Thank you Lord, for the small miracles! My work days will go so much smoother without her here!
Changing topics: At the beginning of next month I will schedule to take to MAT to get into Grad school at AUM for the fall. Grad school is something I have wanted to do since undergrad, but financially was unable to, but now seems like a possibility. I have been studying vocabulary words like crazy for the past month. I know this is a lot to take on while trying to get pregnant, but I at least want to know I can do it, and taking the MAT and getting in is the first step. I can always take a break if/when I do get pregnant. No need to put other plans on hold, until it is a sure thing. :)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Well the weekend is almost over, and still no AF. Praying for Patience.
Had a rough day yesterday. Midnight, our lab went to the vet for her annual checkup, and has another bladder infection...uuugh! Then afterwards, we decided to take her to the park to play fetch. If you know Midnight, you know she loves Fetch!!! She did great! But after about 10-15 minutes she started seizing, or so we think. After about 3-5 minutes of that and her peeing herself, we finally got her in the car to come home. I got so upset, I got another migraine. So it ruined the better part of the rest of my day. Steven did some research online and we can't decide if Midnight has EIC (Excercise Induced Collapse) or not.
Well, I hope the rest of today is better, cleaning and laundry on the agenda.
Had a rough day yesterday. Midnight, our lab went to the vet for her annual checkup, and has another bladder infection...uuugh! Then afterwards, we decided to take her to the park to play fetch. If you know Midnight, you know she loves Fetch!!! She did great! But after about 10-15 minutes she started seizing, or so we think. After about 3-5 minutes of that and her peeing herself, we finally got her in the car to come home. I got so upset, I got another migraine. So it ruined the better part of the rest of my day. Steven did some research online and we can't decide if Midnight has EIC (Excercise Induced Collapse) or not.
Well, I hope the rest of today is better, cleaning and laundry on the agenda.
Friday, April 9, 2010
God grant me...
...the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the Courage to change the things I can, and the Wisdom to know the difference. Amen
a daily prayer that really has come to mean something personal to me over the past few months. Before this was just something I saw randomly displayed in people's homes, or desks or heard people say, Never really looking at what the words actually meant. Now I understand!
I can not change my Past- So I need Serenity to accept it and gain a sense of peace about it. I have learned to just accept it. I can not change others and the decisions they made to hurt me. I can only let go of the pain so I don't torture myself with the questions of "WHY ME?" I look to Christ for strength and Serenity.
Making an effort to overcome my infertility problems- That took Courage. It is easy to lock yourself under the labels, "I Can't Have Kids," "there's Nothing I can do", but the truth is there is something we can do.
It is a lot easier for couples to stop trying NOT to have a baby and if they get pregnant - Great!, than it is to plan and decide to "force" yourself to have a baby. This is scary business. But I prayed for the Courage and God lead me this way.
Now, I know I dont have control over this process- God does. But I am doing what I can do to help (so to say). It is like the old story:
a daily prayer that really has come to mean something personal to me over the past few months. Before this was just something I saw randomly displayed in people's homes, or desks or heard people say, Never really looking at what the words actually meant. Now I understand!
I can not change my Past- So I need Serenity to accept it and gain a sense of peace about it. I have learned to just accept it. I can not change others and the decisions they made to hurt me. I can only let go of the pain so I don't torture myself with the questions of "WHY ME?" I look to Christ for strength and Serenity.
Making an effort to overcome my infertility problems- That took Courage. It is easy to lock yourself under the labels, "I Can't Have Kids," "there's Nothing I can do", but the truth is there is something we can do.
It is a lot easier for couples to stop trying NOT to have a baby and if they get pregnant - Great!, than it is to plan and decide to "force" yourself to have a baby. This is scary business. But I prayed for the Courage and God lead me this way.
Now, I know I dont have control over this process- God does. But I am doing what I can do to help (so to say). It is like the old story:
***********************************The Flood Story*****************************
A flood threatens a town, forcing everyone to evacuate, But Joe thinks, "I'm a devout man, God will save me," and staysput. As the waters rise, Joe's neighbor comes by and says, "Joe come with me, we've got to go." Joe declines, "I'm a devout man, God will save me." The waters keep rising, Joe scrambles to his second floor. A firefighter in a rowboat comes by. "Get in the boat or you'll drown," he says. Joe again declines, saying, "God will save me. So this flood story goes."
Finally, the flood waters force Joe to his roof. A police helicopter comes by and throws down a rope. "Climb up or you'll drown," the policeman yells. "No, I'm a devout man, God will save me," Joe replies.
Finally, the flood waters force Joe to his roof. A police helicopter comes by and throws down a rope. "Climb up or you'll drown," the policeman yells. "No, I'm a devout man, God will save me," Joe replies.
Soon, Joe drowns. He arrives in heaven and challenges God. "Why didn't you help me?" "What do you mean?" God says. "I did help. I sent a neighbor, a firefighter and a helicopter."
Like Joe, many of us wait for something to rescue us while we miss opportunities to help ourselves.
Make a plan - Form a vision of what you want to achieve, then develop a plan of how to make that vision a reality, To judge whether an opportunity is one to seize or let pass you need to Understand whether it fits your goals.
Make a commitment - Get used to saying no, Get used to saying yes.But whatever you do, do it with commitment and conviction. Like Joe, we have to learn to recognize opportunities and then grab them
Make a plan - Form a vision of what you want to achieve, then develop a plan of how to make that vision a reality, To judge whether an opportunity is one to seize or let pass you need to Understand whether it fits your goals.
Make a commitment - Get used to saying no, Get used to saying yes.But whatever you do, do it with commitment and conviction. Like Joe, we have to learn to recognize opportunities and then grab them
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Well that's my lesson for the day. Accept the things you cannot change and make plans and take actions to change the things you can. and when the opportunities come that you have prayed for- hopefully you will have the Wisdom needed to take it .
Now, a quick update on the progress or laCk of. Aunt Flow hasn't come yet. and Biology lets me know without AF, no ovulation can occur, and no pregnancy. Now, I know they can try various other procedures before we are completely out of hope, and it could take up to 2 weeks for the shot to take effect, so I am not giving in yet, but definitely bummed a bit! Pray for me and Steven. I know it will work out in God's timing.
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