Well, it is mid-morning and Aunt Flow (AF) has not come to visit yet. The nurse called yesterday to let me know my Thyroid and Prolactin tests were normal, and my pregnancy test came back negative (which was a big shock- NOT!) She did say this shot could take up to 2 weeks to work, so I am praying for patience now.
I am so afraid of getting my hopes up too high, so I am always praying to stay grounded through this process.
I read a devotional today that I would like to share, it really spoke to me. Not neccessarily with the fertility part but with life in general.

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"The right word spoken at the right time is as beautiful as gold apples in a silver bowl." (Proverbs 25:11 ncv).

There are so many ways we can follow Jesus' example and be a servant to others- sometimes simply by doing ordinary work with cheerfulness. A friend's letter reminded me of that fact. She wrote to say her uncle, a Christian, went with his wife to a Hardee's drive and ordered breakfast. The couple ate there often, she said, and the boy who took their order recognized her uncle's voice and said, "Come on up, partner. We're waiting for you."
Just then the uncle grabbed his chest and said to his wife, "I'll see you in heaven!" And he was gone. The woman wrote:
At my uncle's funeral the minister said, "The voice over the speaker may have been the order-taker's, but it was a message straight from Jesus: 'Come on up, partner; we're waiting on you."

If you thought your words would be the last earthly thing someone heard, would it make a difference in what you said, and how you said it?
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I don't know why, but I really enjoyed this devotion by Barbara Johnson "Daily Splashes of Joy".

I will sign-off for now but will keep you updated on my progress.

Looking Back...

I am sitting here at work and thinking back to various parts of my life and how that affects where I am today, and thought I would share. I was born very poor. Growing up, I knew what it was like to go to bed hungry, or not have shoes that fit. I knew what it meant to be an outcast. I also knew what it meant to be sexualized at the age of 4. I always turned to God to guide me and help me through the trials. And just as He said He would- God brought me to the other side of all those events. I was stronger and more sensitive to others for having gone through them.

Now, there have been several times, I turned away from God- questioning his existence, purpose, and his ability to help me. But somehow, I have always been shown He was there.

I have had many people I loved and trusted use and abuse me, but I still have the capacity to love and trust (a large thanks goes to my god-father, and my husband).

I was raped when I was 16 and got pregnant. I chose to place the baby for adoption for many reasons, but mainly because I wanted my child to have the things I didn't have growing up: love, security, family, stability. It was not an easy decision, but I felt in the depths of my soul it was the right one.

Now 13 years later, I am fighting to get pregnant again. The pain of knowing my past, is at times almost unbearable. However, just as before God holds my hand and gives me the stregnth to keep going.

I know all of this and more will mold my decisions as a mother (once the time comes). I pray God keeps my birth son- safe and close and lets him know I do love him and always will. And that God forms my "future" child into the perfect image of Himself!

Please contyinue to pray for us as we travel down this road! Thanks

Well no advacement in AF coming to visit. Had the Progesterone shot yesterday and dr said it could take up to a few days before starting. This is vital to the rest of the process. I feel a litle crampy, but thats all. Didn't sleep great last night- the dogs couldnt decide whether to sleep on the bed or off, under the covers or on top, and thought breakfast was suppose to come WAAAY to early. I guess preperations for what's to come! I can tell Steven is very nervous about this process, and I understand why. I think once it happenes he will be so estatic!! Well Updates as they come...Keep us all in your prayers.

Infertility Journey

This will be my journey to trying to get pregnant. I was diagnosed in 2005 with PCOS. Our plan was to be marrried 5 yrs before having kids, but we have adjusted that plan a bit. For the past 6- 8 months we have tried to conceive with no luck. I am not ovulating naturally. So today we went to a fertility specialist to help us complete our family.

Today I had a vaginal ultrasound done, and got to see my ovaries for the first time (pretty cool.) The nurse counted quickly 28 cysts on my right ovary and just as many on the left. So this is clearly one reason why we haven't been successful getting pregnant. So today they gave me a shot of Progesterone (OUCH!) in the hip and hopefully I will start a my cycle in the next few days.